a week in

well, almost a week.

i am just so unmotivated!  i feel like i am floundering right now.  The house didn`t go through and I am not sure what to do with myself.  I am in need of some passion but not sure where to find it.

Hmm, should probably be sure i am taking my meds.  Because i haven;t been and I can tell.

I need to move more.  i am averaging 5000 steps a day according to my jawbone and that aint great.  am killing the sleep, tho.  

The eating has to calm down too.  i treat each food item as never having it again.  yikes it is so bad and i just am tired of it.  i am out of shape and getting old and scared.  i havent been able to do this yet why will i ever think i can do it?  and it is exhausting.

meds.  everything begins with those for me.  i feel happier, get more energy and have more control over myself once i medicated.  sad huh?

I really suck at this

I suppose it is good that I don't publicize this blog huh?

13 things that were great about 2013

-  our amazing trip to china. 

-  exciting process of buying a lake house (unfortunately it didn't pan out)

-  Lucy's first friend bday party (even if it was 2 months after her real bday)

- jacks first sleepover bday party. It went great!

-Charlie's first sleepover party. They put a tent in the backyard and came in right before the rain started. 

- slipka family day in August. We went tubing down the Apple River and had ice cream for dessert.

- going back to London with chad for a week. Spent some days in some of my fave parks.  I miss it there. 

-  going to San Diego with chad in July. Beautiful there!

- our weekend in Chicago with Wayne and Sarah in February. So fun!

- mom and Lin came and helped get the house in order to sell. Didn't sell it since the lake house fell through but the house still is pretty organized!

- all three kids in school all day!  And the same school!

-  getting the kitchen done and having my 12 foot Long Island!

-  lengyel Xmas. Karaoke one night, pictionary the next!  We had a lot of fun together this year. 

Ok, 14 things I am looking forward to in 2014:

1. Our family vacation cruise in March. It will be great and we are so looking forward to it!

2.  A trip somewhere fun with chad, maybe?

3.  Andrea and April's 40th bdays this spring.

4.  Planning my garden with Lin. Hope to put in a new bed.

5.  Looking for a new lake house to buy.  Crossing my fingers hard. 

6.  Putting in a bedroom upstairs for jack.

7.  Slipka family day this summer. We have such fun coming up with something to do.

8.  Finally learning photoshop.

9.  Finishing the heal your gut class and getting my gut together.

10.  Exercising again. Ok not looking forward to it but gotta do it.  And looking forward to the results.

11.  My 20 yr reunion this summer. Yikes

12.  Chasing something creative....

13.  A house project. The stairs?  The laundry?  The basement?

14.  The unknown. Something great will happen and I have no idea what that is right now!!!