Well, a stomach bug plaguing my two youngest has put a damper on the big start I wanted to get on the New Year and my Big Plans. Oh well, that is what happens. The key is to just keep on truckin'!
The near constant laundering of sheets, towels, clothing and other random things, along with a need to monitor my little ones (especially my littlest one!) to make sure that they aren't currently puking on something new for me to launder, has led to a cessation of all things closet re-org related. I hope to be able to pick it up and do some more tomorrow, but I should for sure have some time this weekend to hammer it out.
We had a nice New Year's here. Some friends came over; we watched the Gophers lose their Bowl Game; had some cocktails and generally enjoyed ringing in the new year. But as a result, I have a mini-resolution addition - Less Drinking. I hate beating myself up the next day for all of the stupid things I do, and I realized today that part of the reason I drink to excess is because I am nervous and want people to have an AWESOME time. Not just good or happy but AWESOME. And I figure that if i get crazy I will be more entertaining. It just isn't great and it has a lot to do with my anxiety problem. At any rate, I think I am going to talk to my doctor about daily anti-anxiety med, instead of the high powered stuff that I take when I need it. Don't get me wrong - they have been awesome and I love how they totally take the anxiety away for me, but it has pointed out the fact to me that I have a general underlying anxiety problem that is the root of my flare ups. At 33 years old, I am sick and tired of second guessing myself, of being constantly critical of myself and of feeling icky a lot of the time. I know to some people, the fact that I realize this means that I should do behavior modification and that I don't need pills. However, I know that is not the case. And I figure that daily meds is something I at least want to try. Because it could literally change my life and that is something I am not willing to ignore anymore.
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